it's a newspaper tragedy.
Sadness sticks to us, but there's good days in all the mess
Mole4Play: I have no <3 for jackie!
Osh Rules: he licked my butt! i got a rim job from my horse!

You Learn

After A While You Learn....
the subtle difference between holding a hand,
and chaining a soul.
And You Learn...
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't mean security.
And You Begin To Learn...
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead,
with the grace of a woman,
not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.
After A While You Learn...
That even sunshine burns if you ask too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And You Learn...
that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth.
And You Learn...
And You Learn...
With every goodbye, you learn.

...Author Unknown

Brakingeleven: you rock my socks
Brakingeleven: and it is pretty hard to rock my socks, let me tell u

"otherwise we'd be looking for a book on how to pull quarters out from the labia."

"it seems like we all have tears to shed and this sadness seems so over whelming.
I can't stop these lies from spreading
and all these thoughts keep me from breathing."

Sometimes this sadness takes over us
And we need a little distraction
To forget why things are
And smile that temporary smile

So let me be that distraction
And ease the pain you feel
I’ll keep your thoughts away
From anything that makes you tear

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ectasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.


-From The Invitation
By: Oriah Mountain Dreamer

PAINT BRANCH LITERARY MAGAZINE TAKES TOP HONORS IN AMERICAN SCHOLASTIC PRESS ASSOCIATION ANNUAL COMPETITIONS

The Paint Branch Literary Magazine, Crossroads, won a First Place award in the American Scholastic Press Associations Annual yearbook competition.

In the notification letter, Crossroads was praised for the “tremendous amount of time, energy and talent by writers, artists, editors, photographers, copy editors, layout designers and advisor. We congratulate all on your First Place award!” It continues by saying "'Case Files' [a new addition to the magazine] was a very creative idea!” The magazine was chosen from thousands of submissions from around the country.

Crossroads also won a Silver Medal from Columbia University's School of Journalism CSPA Award.

The theme of the 2003 literary magazine was “Aaperire,” meaning to uncover, open, disclose. Ms. Dina Beatty was the Advisor for the literary magazine and Jackie Russell, the Editor. Ms. Russell is now at the University of Maryland, College Park in the Scholars Program.

Joanne: I am being sexiled from my own single. My bed is getting more action than I am.
Lisa to Katie: You're getting more ass than a toilet seat.

i leave my door unlocked at night
you can pull me out of bed
if you know where and when my classes are
wave at me and I will leave
if im in the potty knock on the door
if im in the shower jump in
basically you have the key to me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEL!!

Colm: You're a one woman orgy.
Mel: you're nipples are going to be so cold.

12 days of christmas

Joanne: Joanne gets emotionally attached. Joanne is not a slut. Joanne puts all of her eggs in one basket. Joanne needs to fuck her basket.
Katie: Fuck the basket.
Joanne: I would like to have communion with the basket rather then fuck the basket.

Joanne: Oh my god. Why do I look like a horse?

Katie: I’m looking at myself. Stop taking it away!

Colm: Oh my god. You look like a five year old whore.

Colm: In exactly 35 minutes you die.

Colm: I want a cape. I just want to wear a cape all the time.

Katie: Fucking what?
Colm: Finger.
Joanne: That’s you’re fucking finger?

Joanne: Fuck you.
Colm: No. Fuck Mark.

Joanne: Katie's name actually means dirty as snow that has been peed on
Monika: youre the only NONvirgin here

Joanne: I love Katie. I want Katie to bear my children when that’s invented.

PizzaJunkie18: Katie(95) Greek Female Form of KATHERINE. Pure, Virginal (much laughter followed when this was said aloud to the room)

Monika: I just like rubbing heads, if you can’t tell

Joanne: Wow. Its just like being blond!

Katie: I want to be coated in chocolate. Like an easter bunny but not hollow.

From the sky
the flakes fall,
reflecting
in your eyes
the time
that continues to go by.
and though
I feel
empty inside
and the cold
keeps my heart
warm,
which comforts me,
I'm still wearing
tears
in my eyes.

guitarwomyn: do you know what's super cool?
Seasickmnky: what???
guitarwomyn: stars... they're all like "look we're shiny and bright, come and play with us!" and then it's like you go play with them but AHHHH you touch them and you combust.

mel and I on third nipples:
guitarwomyn: if i did i'd definitely pierce it
Seasickmnky: nice. that would be hot

guitarwomyn: showering together is going to be so much more fun
Seasickmnky: I know. it shall be like peeing with you!

brakingeleven: a day without sex is like a day without sun... sadly, switzerland's days are dark and dreary

A dragonfly has a life span of 24 hours.
The squirrel monkey's brain accounts for roughly 5 percent of its body weight - the largest percentage of any other animal. The human brain, by comparison, makes up about 2.3 percent of body weight.
Castrated men live an average of 13 years longer than those not castrated.
The opposite of "cross-eyed" is "wall-eyed."
One out of every two hundred women is endowed with an extra nipple.
do you suffer from 'dasypygal'?

Seasickmnky: I spit in your orange juice
Mole4Play: oh god
Mole4Play: OH DEAR GOD NO!
Seasickmnky: Do you have mono?
Mole4Play: not as far as I know
Seasickmnky: that is what you should be asking your self
Mole4Play: oh my god
Mole4Play: I hate all of you
Mole4Play: thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much

SCAVENGER HUNT!
go find these and bring them back to me.
· Puppy
· Comb
· Banana
· Pencil
· Crab
· Radio
· Toilet paper dowel
· Stick
· Monkey
· Notebook
· Remote control
· Irish guy in Elkton
· Blue boxers
· Shoe laces
· A Picture of Johnny Depp
· Dustbuster
· Tennis ball
· Needlenose pliers
· Mikey
· Rubik's cube
· Condom
· Spork
· Frisbee
· Apple
· Pizza box
· Cookie
· Orange BIC lighter
· Cluck-U menu
· Movie ticket stub
· 6-inch ruler
we did it!!!

Jackie: He's so tall he has to duck.
Katie: That's weird, ducks aren't that tall.

"To live is to strive to become as 'skilled' as Carlita"
- - - - - - - - - - - - -
really? because sometimes I don't think they do. How can you live. I mean REALLY live when everything is planned out for you. when your life is a cycle and the only thing you know for ceratin is that your going to die. how is that living?

And I've got scars I'm willing to show you,
you had heart that I'll never see,
she had answers to all the wrong questions,
It's funny these answers are all that I need.
- - It's crazy the things we made in the sky.
So picture me drowning,
pretending I'm happy,
we end up regreting the things..
We don't try. - - Here with my problems
I don't need the light,
they're bigger than darkness and darker than night.
I leave on a promise of something that shines,
perfection aint perfect
a leaver will find. I find this all the time

I miss you when I'm sad. I miss you when I'm lonely. But most of all, I miss you when I'm happy.
"If you live one hundred years then I want to live one hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you."

I would just like to say that I have some of the best friends ever. I <3 you guys. thanks for the puppet show. Definitly one of the best gifts I've ever gotten. and the flower pot. : )


Lisa is amusing....
- They we're just trying to be proud of thier genatalia.
- It smells like buring.
- E-money is going to get a punch in the face

"When was it that you lost your youth or traded
It for something more for them to use so jaded
Why is it that you never said
I love you more than just a friend
I pray this gridlock never ends
And when we get there just depends
I found out recently that you are leaving
For good I hope I softly tell my ceiling
It's better now to be alive
Sleeping is my 9 to 5
I'm having nightmares all the time
Of running out of words that rhyme
Everything that you could never say
Would never matter anyway
I took a hammer and two nails to my eardrums long ago
Before that steak knife took my eyes
I looked up to the sky
For the last thing I would ever see
For the last time I'd cry" - Alkaline Trio

I hate you this much

<3

butt. hole.
awesome view
old ladies. ow ow.
peeing off bridges
girl talk
sir, dictator sir. Lisa and Joanne are stupid.
truth or dare...
battle scars
I LOVED CAMPING with awesome people!

I pride myself on being someone who regrets nothing. And you know what? I've been pretty good at that. except for one thing. The one person I have ever loved, I never had the guts to tell him that I loved him. and now he's gone and i'm gone. so don't make the same mistake as me. when you love someone, tell them. don't let them get away. live with no regrets.

SayItAintSo33: you know you are a dendrophiliac
SayItAintSo33: its ok
SayItAintSo33: as long as you don't hurt yourself in the process

Brakingeleven: ahhhhhhh! i'm 43% gay

Me: rubbing nose with middle finger
Jo: What do I have something on my nose?
Mel: She's giving you the middle finger

I am someone who:
seasickmnky: blushes at a compliment
seasickmnky: will ask a stranger for directions
seasickmnky: stops to smell the flowers
seasickmnky: daydreams a lot
seasickmnky: likes thunderstorms

bluerunawaydog: listens to music full blast
bluerunawaydog: cries at movies
bluerunawaydog: likes thunderstorms
bluerunawaydog: yells at the umpire
bluerunawaydog:reads comics before the front page :D

Brakingeleven: asks a stranger for directions
Brakingeleven: goes to bed early
Brakingeleven: sleeps until the last second
Brakingeleven: likes thunderstorms
Brakingeleven: loves crosswords

tRaJiC SmERF: listens to music full blast
tRaJiC SmERF: likes thunderstorms
tRaJiC SmERF: is afraid of the dark
tRaJiC SmERF: plays the guitar
tRaJiC SmERF: wont use a portable toilet

PizzaJunkie18: would go on a blind date
PizzaJunkie18: listens to music full blast
PizzaJunkie18: likes thunderstorms
PizzaJunkie18: sleeps until the last second
PizzaJunkie18: reads comics before the front page

ten LE GRRR ten: listens to music full blast
ten LE GRRR ten: daydreams a lot
ten LE GRRR ten: likes thunderstorms
ten LE GRRR ten: would go on a blind date
ten LE GRRR ten: sleeps until the last second

SayItAintSo33: blushes at a compliment
SayItAintSo33: daydreams a lot
SayItAintSo33: will ask a stranger for directions
SayItAintSo33: sleeps with a teddy bear
SayItAintSo33: likes to play practical jokes

PerfectFlaw17: blushes at a compliment
PerfectFlaw17: sings in the shower
PerfectFlaw17: listens to music full blast
PerfectFlaw17: daydreams alot
PerfectFlaw17: plays guitar

LadyRepublica: would go on a blind date
LadyRepublica: talks to plants
LadyRepublica: sleeps till the last second
LadyRepublica: sleeps with a teddy bear
LadyRepublica: likes to play practical jokes

mark five things that describe you.

I am someone who:
1 blushes at a compliment
2 would go on a blind date
3 sings in the shower
4 slurps my soup
5 listens to music full blast
6 likes to dance
7 cries at movies
8 stops to smell the flowers
9 daydreams a lot
10 has placed a personal ad
11 wont use a portable toilet
12 likes thunderstorms
13 enjoys romance novels
14 loves crossword puzzles
15 hates flying
16 has a black belt
17 watches soap operas
18 is afraid of the dark
19 goes to bed early
20 plays the guitar
21 talks to plants
22 sleeps until the last second
23 will ask a stranger for directions
24 yells at the umpire
25 loves to play tennis
26 makes a "to do" list every morning
27 sleeps with a teddy bear
28 tells a friend they have bad breath
29 likes to play practical jokes
30 reads comics before the front page

maybe I would tell you where I was but it seems it always gets ruined. I'm left with no choice but to become secretive.

How can I make myself happy when I can't even make you smile?
Don't read into this as being more then it really is because I don't want you to feel for me. You don't need that kind of stress in you life.

In the early morning a the smell of boys and farm mix togther and waft through the open window and for some reason its comforting.

silly kids and thier silly dreams of becoming something better...

Monika:"You're not just a slut, you're my favorite slut."
Me: "We are not naming my boobs Thelma and Louis."

EL CAPITANNN!

Happy Halloween!! Come visit our hot floor

ShinyCube7: ScarletP5: oh ok
ShinyCube7: it spreads again!!!
ShinyCube7: I never noticed this until you told me about the ryan disease
ShinyCube7: ThisWouldBeMark: oh ok
ShinyCube7: AHHHHH!!!
------------------------------------------------

ShinyCube7: it spreads!!!
ShinyCube7: lankasky: oh ok
ShinyCube7: the ryan disease

I'm telling you...that boy is contagious

"When I wake up alone, the shades are still drawn on the cold window pane so they cast their lines on my bed and lines on my face."

People like you amuse me. and when I say people like you, I mean people like us.

Happiness is like peeing in your pants. Others can see it, but only you can feel it.

This place of solitude is quite and dark. and I have no reason not to love being alone.

"What difference is there between us, save a restless dream that follows my soul but fears to come near you?"
-Kahlil Gibran

"The most wasted day of all is that during which we have not laughed." -Sebastian R. N. Chamfort

Young man to Dorothy Parker: "I can't bear fools."
Dorothy Parker to young man: "Funny, your mother could."

"and at night walking the streets for
hours,
the moonlight always seemed fake
to me, maybe it was" - Young in New Orleans

"Look at him, a rhinestone in the rough." - Dorthy Parker

And maybe I'd share my insides with you but I don't think I can trust you with the remains of my glass heart.

I do not know why It never occurred to me before but I think that I see something in your eyes that is eager to be released.

tenLEGRRRten: DAAAAAAAASANI
Seasickmnky: loser
tenLEGRRRten: ....i know :-(
Seasickmnky: I still love you
tenLEGRRRten: :-D
tenLEGRRRten: ...wait you're lying
tenLEGRRRten: ...shutup
Seasickmnky: No I really do. I want to have your babies
tenLEGRRRten: YAY
---
tenLEGRRRten: fuck you bitch, get offa your knees and stop tryin to blow me.
...
tenLEGRRRten: i should buy you some kneepads for your birthday ho
---
Seasickmnky: I should buy you some condems. I'm tired of hearing about all your abortions...
tenLEGRRRten: well i just go through them so damn fast
Seasickmnky: mating like fucking bunnies

"Theres a beautiful sky tonight and if you were by my side then we could share it but you are gone. So come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars cause nothing matters anymore. If I could only see you now for about an hour maybe just a minute just to ask What has he got that I don't have? Is it his brown eyes? I know blue eyes get boring but I'll wear dark glasses all the time and hey if you want me to, I'll take a knife to my own bright eyes." - Saves The Day/ <strong>Sell my old clothes, I'm going to heaven
"O Alcohol, would you please forgive me? For while I cannot love myself I'll use something else I thought that Alcohol was just for those with nothing else to do I thought that drinking just to get drunk was a waste of precious booze But now I know that there's a time and there's a place where I can choose To walk the fine line between self-control and self-abuse"- Bare Naked Ladies/alcohol

Joanne: You know, condoms can be used for other things besides sex. Like condom water balloons. The best is when you fill them up and they're all rainbow colorered.

"So, my little Amélie, you don't have bones of glass. You can take life's knocks. If you let this chance pass, eventually, your heart will become as dry and brittle as my skeleton. So, go to him, dammit!" - Raymond Dufayel aka Glass Man

I want to know what goes through your head. I can see your brain processing things. I just can't read what is saids.

Kevin: You're difficult
Me: I'm not difficult. I'm easy.

Joel: I'm trying to grow out my beard
Me: I know girls whose facial hair grows faster

Me: What Kind of humor is this?
AstroMike: Funny humor.

Me:I want to get drunk.
You should want to get me drunk.
So we could like, want to get me drunk together.

"It was one of those moments that lives in your mind forever, like when the elementary school band teacher first shows you the correct method for blowing a trumpet, but without a trumpet." - TheEyebrow

"i want so badly to believe that there is truth, and love is real..."

Seasickmnky: I just realized that everyone is going to turn 21 and be able to go to the bars and I will be all by myself.
tenLEGRRRten: yes i shall be the alcoholic calling you and asking you why you're not there..
tenLEGRRRten: and then i'll go... OH YEAH YOU'RE NOT TWENTY ONE HAHAHAHAH

One of the more amusing spams:
Grow your pee-pee like a cheetah pet

Matt: It seems our mascot is homosexual.
Nonastro Mike: It would seem that way.

"Some day will find it,
the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me"
-Kermit the Frog

love is cute

the Ryan disease is spreading to people he doesn't even know
LadyRepublica: oh
LadyRepublica: ok
PerfectFlaw17: oh ok

hyperkid876: i think we would make a great couple
hyperkid876: but then you would have to get rid of all of your manwhores
hyperkid876: im just not sure if i should say this to you, sooo many ppl have warned me about you. they say that you are a sex fiend and will toy with someones emotions because you know they want you
hyperkid876: is that true jackie, are you a tawdry sex kitten?

Be the kind of person who doesnt need someone else to live
love is the cutest thing ever

Im glad there are still guys who make me believe in chivalry

I can never tell when to be serious with you
So I'll be lame and post it here. Maybe one day I'll tell you or you'll read this and then I'd know...

Your hard to figure out because at some instances you are secure with yourself and fun. You don't care what people think. Yet at others you care and sensor who you are. You don't let people know what your really thinking. Thus the difficulty. Its not a bad thing. Just gives you an air of uncertainty. Maybe we just don't know you well enough? Who knows...

Love is not something that you can put chains on and throw into a lake Thats called Houdini Love is liking someone a lot

"Ive never been the praying kind
But lately Ive been down upon my knees
Not looking for a miracle
Just a reason to believe
I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say its alright
I might need you to make the first stand"

I love the colorful clothes she wears
And the way the sunlight plays upon her hair
I hear the sound of a gentle word
On the wind that lifts her perfume through the air
Im pickin up good vibrations
Shes giving me excitations
I'm pickin up good vibrations Beach Boys

This is gonna sound a little impulsive
This is gonna sound a little insane
I know you dont know me yet
But you and I we will be together someday

There used to be a time
When youre the only one
That you could see
You built a wall to keep you free
You saw it all so perfectly
You divided everything
You had into a thousand parts or names
It made it easier to place the blame
But it never really was the same
But you forgot the reason why
You had to be alone to breathe
Something from your history
Or have you lost your memory
But now it seems your baggage
Is the only thing than you can bring
You had a lie for everything
And now your world is crumbling
- -You used to think that
You would never be alone
But you're losing control
You find it hard to see at all
To find your way back
- -You had a lie for everything
Or were you ever really listening
Dishwalla

No matter what I say, I will always care.
There is no way I can't.
No matter how cocky I act.
Or how confidente,
I am still the quiet insecure girl.
I wish I didn't care but in a sense everyone does.
In a sense, everyone wants to be accepted.
It just depends on who I want to be accepted by.

i wanna make you smile
whenever you're sad
carry you around when your arthritis is bad
all i wanna do, is grow old with you
I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
So, it could be so nice growing old with you
I'll miss you Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you Feed you
Even let you hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man that grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you. - Adam Sandler in The Wedding Singer

Kermit The Frog - The Rainbow Connection Lyrics: "Why are there so many
Songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side
Rainbow's are visions
They're only illusions
And rainbows have nothing to hide
So we've been told and some chose to
Believe it
But I know they're wrong wait and see

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me

Who said that every wish
Would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star
Somebody thought of that
And someone believed it
And look what it's done so far
What's so amazing
That keeps us star gazing
What so we think we might see

Someday we'll find it
That Rainbow Connection
The lovers the dreamers and me

Have you been half asleep
And have you heard voices
I've heard them calling my name
Are these the sweet sounds that called
The young sailors
I think they're one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
There's something that I'm supposed to be

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me"

I remember everything.
I can't believe how much I can hold.
Bottled up so tight inside.
I can't tell anyone anything.
Everyone makes me think too much.

Oh alcohol
Would you please forgive
For while I cannot love myself
I'll use something else
I thought that alcohol
Was just for those with nothing else to do
I thought that drinking just to get drunk
Was a waste of precious booze
But now I know that there's
A time and theres a place where I can choose
To walk the fine line between self-control and self-abuse
-Bare Naked Ladies/ alcohol

Scorpio:
strengths: You're creative, sensitive, and deep.
snags: You can be shy and a little too secretive at times
style: Your style sense is as intense as your personality
dream date: He must be trustworthy and patient, since you won't give your heart away too quickly
dream job: Your great at keeping secrets - try the CIA
you'd never: Brag

wow. stop knowing me.

Wanna know a secret?
I'm sorry I can't tell you. It makes me too paranoid to share with you a part of me.

"Well if I'm sorry
Does that mean I have to change
cause change does scare me
I'd like to know how I would feel
and if you'll have me
I won't leave or make you hurt
cause I need you
and I hope you'll let me
So when I see you
Please understand the way I think
Your smile it heals me
I never want to go away
Believe I love you
No matter how selfish I get
I know you'll help me
The way I feel I won't forget
I feel cold sometimes
I turn my faith to fear
I seem so lost sometimes
Can you find it?
and if I'm sorry
Does that mean I have to change
cause change does scare me
I'd like to know how I would feel
and if you'll have me
I won't leave or make you hurt
cause I need you"

RyanJGGR: everyone was worried
Seasickmnky: why?
Seasickmnky: whose 'everyone'
RyanJGGR: because you had a depressing profile and you aren't acting normal today
RyanJGGR: uh
RyanJGGR: a lot of people
RyanJGGR: the boy band
RyanJGGR: and lisa
Seasickmnky: awww. I appreicate it. sometimes I just have trouble with...life.
RyanJGGR: ok
RyanJGGR: good, as long as you are better now
Seasickmnky: i think i'll be okay. what you just said helped a ton.
RyanJGGR: good

You don't have to treat me like glass,
I don't break that easily...

"Where there is love there is life."- Gandhi
"In all things of nature there is something of the marvelous." - Aristole
"We must all die. But that I can save him from days of torture, that is what I feel as my great and ever new privilege." - Albert Schweitzer
"Those who do not know how to weep with thier whole heart don't know how to laugh either." - Golda Meir

I guess I'm one of the crazy people. I can't help but smile when I'm happy, even if I'm by myself. I'm the kind of person who smiles and you sit there wondering what I'm smiling for. Like I have this joke with the world that you just don't understand.

alive and breathing.
I can no longer be the optimist, it's too hard to smile.

"This is the last time I'll try to reach you
and my guess is, you'll just ignore me.
Without a passing glance
without the slightest sigh
without moving your hands
without the softest cry."

"What was it that made you think,
that I could just sit and take this,
what was it that made you think,
this is understanding.
There's something in this air tonight,
and I am lost for you to find,
maybe it's best to say goodnight.
the broken pieces left in me,
broken up from everything scatter away,
can you just say goodnight."

I obviously stopped caring and don't belong on the internet ever again. I think I will go kill myself now because that is obviously the thing greg want me to do.

I find it interesting that certain people didn't start iming till they saw my warning level. amusing. again. thanks greg.

"Imagine a plague you can catch through your ears.
Sticks and stones will break your bones, but now words can kill, too.
The new death, this plague, can come from anywhere. A song. An overhead annoncement. A news bulletin. A serman. A street musician. You can catch death from a telemarketer. A teacher. An Internet file. A birthday card. A fortune cookie.
A million people might watch a television show, then be dead the next morning because of an advertising jingle.
Imagine the panic."
-Chuck Palahniuk Lullaby

"This light in my heart,
is beginning to starve."
- the honor system newer

i have a love hate relationship with aim. i need ideas for a tattoo. give me give me.
i really like his eyes. nice hands too. :-D

TheEyebrow: Why?
Seasickmnky: me and lisa have different uses of the word
TheEyebrow: What does she think it is?
Seasickmnky: skeevy stalkerish
TheEyebrow: What the hell is skeevy
TheEyebrow: You guys use some weird words
TheEyebrow: If a teacher tells you she wants a paper in a folder, does it have to be a special folder or can it be one you got at orientation?
Seasickmnky: hmm... are you turning in a paper?
Seasickmnky: i think the one for orientation should be alright
TheEyebrow: k
Seasickmnky: skeevy = creepy
TheEyebrow: and whats your definition
Seasickmnky: weird. random.
TheEyebrow: Im with her
Seasickmnky: okay. fine take her side. i give up. i lose at life again!
Seasickmnky: lisa saids your cool and not sketchy
TheEyebrow: lol tell her thanks
TheEyebrow: I didnt take anyone's side
TheEyebrow: I just chose the correct answer
Seasickmnky: uhuh sure. its okay. I understand.
TheEyebrow: hahaha
Seasickmnky: you like lisa better. its alright. you don't have to deny it. stop making excuses
TheEyebrow: I dont like Lisa better I swear
TheEyebrow: To be perfectly honest
TheEyebrow: I hate both of you
TheEyebrow: So it's really not worth arguing over
Seasickmnky: uhuh. whatever you say. I'm not the only slow one though...Lisa didn't know you and ryan went to the same school too.
TheEyebrow: Well
TheEyebrow: I can't help it if you guys are bad listeners
Seasickmnky: did you know lisa and I went to the same school?
TheEyebrow: I uh...
TheEyebrow: yes?
Seasickmnky: what does that mean? you knew that right?
TheEyebrow: Of course I might have
Seasickmnky: Is that a lie? I don't think you really knew
TheEyebrow: Im going to call your bluff and say you guys didnt go to the same school
Seasickmnky: We went to Glenelg
TheEyebrow: Whoa you guys went to Glenelg?
Seasickmnky: Duh. don't you pay attention!!
Seasickmnky: You went to Centennial right?
TheEyebrow: No no Im saying about Glenelg
TheEyebrow: Howard
Seasickmnky: right. Howard County
TheEyebrow: I didnt know you guys went to Glenelg though, thats weird
Seasickmnky: Principal Wise was cool. She wrote Lisa her recommendation
TheEyebrow: cool
Seasickmnky: Lisa wouldn't be in Scholars without her
Seasickmnky: Its kind of freaky we're room mates.
TheEyebrow: Wait, so you didnt pick each other?
Seasickmnky: nope totally random. but its cool we get along now
TheEyebrow: Did you know each other in high school??
Seasickmnky: We didn't really like each other too much in high school
Seasickmnky: she was too cool for me
TheEyebrow: lol
Seasickmnky: we hated each other in middle school. its pretty amusing how it all worked out
TheEyebrow: hahaha
TheEyebrow: Whyd you hate each other?
Seasickmnky: She was a bitch. I was a nerd.
TheEyebrow: lol
TheEyebrow: What do you mean by "was"
Seasickmnky: Lisa said "Fuck You"
TheEyebrow: hahaha
Seasickmnky: but your right she can still be a little snobby
Seasickmnky: her and her horse friends enjoyed making fun of me because I was in girl scouts
TheEyebrow: horse friends?
Seasickmnky: Yea. the people she rides horse with. You did know she has a horse
TheEyebrow: Yea
TheEyebrow: Horse friends just sounds weird
Seasickmnky: Opps I meant wHore friends
Seasickmnky: *Oops
TheEyebrow: hahaha
Seasickmnky: She still like to rub the fact that I was a girl scout in my face. I couldn't help it! I had a choice between girl scouts or gymnastics
Seasickmnky: and I'm not very flexiable
Seasickmnky: I use to be the fat kid back in the day...:-(
TheEyebrow: I see
TheEyebrow: I wanted to be a Boy Scout when I was younger but that's just a primer for the NRA
Seasickmnky: yea...girl scouts is the same way. I'm so ashamed.
TheEyebrow: lol
Seasickmnky: no. I'm serious. I never should have picked up that gun. Then maybe fluffy would still be alive.
TheEyebrow: lol
Seasickmnky: I was really mad at Lisa. and I "accidently" shot her rabbit, fluffy.
TheEyebrow: Poor Fluffy
Seasickmnky: Lisa cried for like three days. Then she got a rottweiler named mikey. luckily my cat max was faster then mikey
TheEyebrow: GO MAX!
Seasickmnky: I don't know why I'm telling you all this...
TheEyebrow: lol
Seasickmnky: I really shouldn't bring up the past
Seasickmnky: it makes me sad
Seasickmnky: and mad
Seasickmnky: lisa may not be around tomorrow morning
TheEyebrow: Hey man, by now you should be able to look back and just laugh
Seasickmnky: We are really good actors and can play our hate off. But sometimes I feel like she still hates me. A LOT
Seasickmnky: haven't you heard her threaten me!
Seasickmnky: like everyday
TheEyebrow: lol
TheEyebrow: I dont even know if you're joking anymore
TheEyebrow: But I'll laugh regardless
Seasickmnky: I was never joking. We've always hated each other
Seasickmnky: I'm serious.
Seasickmnky: I'm going to have to take my problems else where if you don't believe me
TheEyebrow: hahaha
Seasickmnky: fine obviously you don't believe me. But we for real both went to Glenelg
TheEyebrow: I believe that
TheEyebrow: ...or do I
Seasickmnky: you should. I'll let you see my yearbook the next time you come over.
TheEyebrow: cool
Seasickmnky: GO GLADIATORS!
TheEyebrow: Go Lions baby
TheEyebrow: Im Howard Powered
TheEyebrow: brb
Seasickmnky: We so killed your football team
TheEyebrow: Thats because we sucked
Seasickmnky: I was captain of the Mock Trial team and Lisa was captain of the field hockey team. both which punished your team
Seasickmnky: 36-6 I believe was the score...
TheEyebrow: I was captain of the no school spirit team
Seasickmnky: I should of been in that club but nooo I had to be in the stock market club
TheEyebrow: haha
TheEyebrow: Alright man
TheEyebrow: I gotta get to sleep cause I got an 8
Seasickmnky: alright I have to go to bed now. I'm sure you've had enough of my Glenelg days. That's cool how we lived so close though
TheEyebrow: Yea
Messing with People is so fun We love you mike!!

at least now i'm getting emails to make my boobs bigger rather then just getting stuff that wants me to increase my non-existent PENIS size.

I think I am going to watch requiem for a dream tonight. Care to watch? drop me a line then...

can't go outside anymore when its raining
can't smash up that beautiful face

Old doesn't just apply to those who can remember life before airplanes or television. You qualify if things you once considered cutting-edge technology are now antiques. Or when the latest trends you swear you embraced just yesterday are things the MTV generation never heard of.

its an environmental science major thing. tree fucking...

RyanJGGR: girls and slow were made to go in the same sentence
RyanJGGR: they are interchangable
RyanJGGR: like mike and crap

i can't think of anything clever to say...

random quotes i've used
*idols are for people who can't live up to thier own dreams, so they have to chase after someone else's.
*There are lots of fables and stories about virgins. This is why myths like "sleeping with a virgin will cure AIDS" get invented. The truth is: until we start to think differently we are on our way to destruction. These rules will take us to our death.
*dendrophilia: getting aroused by fucking trees. =-O
*defenestrate \dee-FEN-uh-strayt\, transitive verb:
To throw out of a window.
*TENlegrrrTEN: oh yeah you know how i'm just fuckin everyone in my dorm
*Why is Donkey Kong called "DONKEY" Kong if he's a monkey?
*call me: 301.405.0958 @ umd
*"You have a pickled shark. I wonder if pickled shark taste good."
*"Do you know who the virgin Mary is?" "How can she be a virgin? Didn't she have sex with god?" "WHAT? I'm Jewish!"
*While standing on the elevator: "Are you guys looking for the elevator?"
*IF your name was Crunch and you joined the Navy, would people have to call you Captain Crunch?”
*i need something to hold on tight to. can you help me find a way to carry on again?
*I think it smells like cheese.
*Who put this porn on my computer?
*Don't feel bad, you are the cutest guy I've met. Seriously.
*Boys suck. They smell funny. They probably pee funny colors too.
*[Vacation Pictures] http://www24.big.or.jp/~kyusoku/whale7/penis.jpg

the time before dawn
nows the time to grab a kiss
before the sun rises
we'll part and go our seperate ways
superheros in tights
girl in pink chucks
lets try and count the times
a yellow rose shares our last goodbyes

this is the hour we steal the neighbors paper
i'll read our horoscopes to pass the time
what happens when i'm left behind?
i hear they make girls different there
i'll try not to remeber your arms around mine
i always hated the taste of turpintine
well maybe next time

can i still wear white tonight?
if not this shawl of black will do
we'll hide like bandits in the night
while the air fills thick with cigarette
our lips taste like candy lip shine
while your fingers tickle my neck
i knew i could never go back

my life will never be the same
the world can never go back
its all quite a shame
wasting that night away

I sit and wonder what I’m doing here
I can’t keep trying to be who you want me to be
This game of charades is so hard to keep up with
Sometimes I feel so empty
I only wish I felt involved
I never wanted anything more
Then to feel satisified.

I tend to follow you around
It seems I’m no longer wanted here
I’m not sure wither to run and hide
Or conitune to pester you till your annoyed
I only wish you’d give me a sign
I never wanted anything more
Then to be friends.

I sneak away lacking the guts to answer
I can’t tell when you see me
The way you look right through this space
Your eyes in my general direction
I only wish I could tell
I never wanted anything more
Then to be seen.

I speak when you seem to hear
It is usually only when your wasted
That’s when you want my company
I always listen even when you don’t say a thing
I only wished you heard me
I never wanted anything more
Then to speak aloud.

I only wished I was real
I never wanted anything more
Then to feel.
*this is the full poem. it didn't fit in my profile which explains the changes.