Scorpio:
strengths: You're creative, sensitive, and deep.
snags: You can be shy and a little too secretive at times
style: Your style sense is as intense as your personality
dream date: He must be trustworthy and patient, since you won't give your heart away too quickly
dream job: Your great at keeping secrets - try the CIA
you'd never: Brag

wow. stop knowing me.

Wanna know a secret?
I'm sorry I can't tell you. It makes me too paranoid to share with you a part of me.

"Well if I'm sorry
Does that mean I have to change
cause change does scare me
I'd like to know how I would feel
and if you'll have me
I won't leave or make you hurt
cause I need you
and I hope you'll let me
So when I see you
Please understand the way I think
Your smile it heals me
I never want to go away
Believe I love you
No matter how selfish I get
I know you'll help me
The way I feel I won't forget
I feel cold sometimes
I turn my faith to fear
I seem so lost sometimes
Can you find it?
and if I'm sorry
Does that mean I have to change
cause change does scare me
I'd like to know how I would feel
and if you'll have me
I won't leave or make you hurt
cause I need you"

RyanJGGR: everyone was worried
Seasickmnky: why?
Seasickmnky: whose 'everyone'
RyanJGGR: because you had a depressing profile and you aren't acting normal today
RyanJGGR: uh
RyanJGGR: a lot of people
RyanJGGR: the boy band
RyanJGGR: and lisa
Seasickmnky: awww. I appreicate it. sometimes I just have trouble with...life.
RyanJGGR: ok
RyanJGGR: good, as long as you are better now
Seasickmnky: i think i'll be okay. what you just said helped a ton.
RyanJGGR: good

You don't have to treat me like glass,
I don't break that easily...

"Where there is love there is life."- Gandhi
"In all things of nature there is something of the marvelous." - Aristole
"We must all die. But that I can save him from days of torture, that is what I feel as my great and ever new privilege." - Albert Schweitzer
"Those who do not know how to weep with thier whole heart don't know how to laugh either." - Golda Meir

I guess I'm one of the crazy people. I can't help but smile when I'm happy, even if I'm by myself. I'm the kind of person who smiles and you sit there wondering what I'm smiling for. Like I have this joke with the world that you just don't understand.

alive and breathing.
I can no longer be the optimist, it's too hard to smile.

"This is the last time I'll try to reach you
and my guess is, you'll just ignore me.
Without a passing glance
without the slightest sigh
without moving your hands
without the softest cry."

"What was it that made you think,
that I could just sit and take this,
what was it that made you think,
this is understanding.
There's something in this air tonight,
and I am lost for you to find,
maybe it's best to say goodnight.
the broken pieces left in me,
broken up from everything scatter away,
can you just say goodnight."

I obviously stopped caring and don't belong on the internet ever again. I think I will go kill myself now because that is obviously the thing greg want me to do.

I find it interesting that certain people didn't start iming till they saw my warning level. amusing. again. thanks greg.

"Imagine a plague you can catch through your ears.
Sticks and stones will break your bones, but now words can kill, too.
The new death, this plague, can come from anywhere. A song. An overhead annoncement. A news bulletin. A serman. A street musician. You can catch death from a telemarketer. A teacher. An Internet file. A birthday card. A fortune cookie.
A million people might watch a television show, then be dead the next morning because of an advertising jingle.
Imagine the panic."
-Chuck Palahniuk Lullaby

"This light in my heart,
is beginning to starve."
- the honor system newer

i have a love hate relationship with aim. i need ideas for a tattoo. give me give me.
i really like his eyes. nice hands too. :-D

TheEyebrow: Why?
Seasickmnky: me and lisa have different uses of the word
TheEyebrow: What does she think it is?
Seasickmnky: skeevy stalkerish
TheEyebrow: What the hell is skeevy
TheEyebrow: You guys use some weird words
TheEyebrow: If a teacher tells you she wants a paper in a folder, does it have to be a special folder or can it be one you got at orientation?
Seasickmnky: hmm... are you turning in a paper?
Seasickmnky: i think the one for orientation should be alright
TheEyebrow: k
Seasickmnky: skeevy = creepy
TheEyebrow: and whats your definition
Seasickmnky: weird. random.
TheEyebrow: Im with her
Seasickmnky: okay. fine take her side. i give up. i lose at life again!
Seasickmnky: lisa saids your cool and not sketchy
TheEyebrow: lol tell her thanks
TheEyebrow: I didnt take anyone's side
TheEyebrow: I just chose the correct answer
Seasickmnky: uhuh sure. its okay. I understand.
TheEyebrow: hahaha
Seasickmnky: you like lisa better. its alright. you don't have to deny it. stop making excuses
TheEyebrow: I dont like Lisa better I swear
TheEyebrow: To be perfectly honest
TheEyebrow: I hate both of you
TheEyebrow: So it's really not worth arguing over
Seasickmnky: uhuh. whatever you say. I'm not the only slow one though...Lisa didn't know you and ryan went to the same school too.
TheEyebrow: Well
TheEyebrow: I can't help it if you guys are bad listeners
Seasickmnky: did you know lisa and I went to the same school?
TheEyebrow: I uh...
TheEyebrow: yes?
Seasickmnky: what does that mean? you knew that right?
TheEyebrow: Of course I might have
Seasickmnky: Is that a lie? I don't think you really knew
TheEyebrow: Im going to call your bluff and say you guys didnt go to the same school
Seasickmnky: We went to Glenelg
TheEyebrow: Whoa you guys went to Glenelg?
Seasickmnky: Duh. don't you pay attention!!
Seasickmnky: You went to Centennial right?
TheEyebrow: No no Im saying about Glenelg
TheEyebrow: Howard
Seasickmnky: right. Howard County
TheEyebrow: I didnt know you guys went to Glenelg though, thats weird
Seasickmnky: Principal Wise was cool. She wrote Lisa her recommendation
TheEyebrow: cool
Seasickmnky: Lisa wouldn't be in Scholars without her
Seasickmnky: Its kind of freaky we're room mates.
TheEyebrow: Wait, so you didnt pick each other?
Seasickmnky: nope totally random. but its cool we get along now
TheEyebrow: Did you know each other in high school??
Seasickmnky: We didn't really like each other too much in high school
Seasickmnky: she was too cool for me
TheEyebrow: lol
Seasickmnky: we hated each other in middle school. its pretty amusing how it all worked out
TheEyebrow: hahaha
TheEyebrow: Whyd you hate each other?
Seasickmnky: She was a bitch. I was a nerd.
TheEyebrow: lol
TheEyebrow: What do you mean by "was"
Seasickmnky: Lisa said "Fuck You"
TheEyebrow: hahaha
Seasickmnky: but your right she can still be a little snobby
Seasickmnky: her and her horse friends enjoyed making fun of me because I was in girl scouts
TheEyebrow: horse friends?
Seasickmnky: Yea. the people she rides horse with. You did know she has a horse
TheEyebrow: Yea
TheEyebrow: Horse friends just sounds weird
Seasickmnky: Opps I meant wHore friends
Seasickmnky: *Oops
TheEyebrow: hahaha
Seasickmnky: She still like to rub the fact that I was a girl scout in my face. I couldn't help it! I had a choice between girl scouts or gymnastics
Seasickmnky: and I'm not very flexiable
Seasickmnky: I use to be the fat kid back in the day...:-(
TheEyebrow: I see
TheEyebrow: I wanted to be a Boy Scout when I was younger but that's just a primer for the NRA
Seasickmnky: yea...girl scouts is the same way. I'm so ashamed.
TheEyebrow: lol
Seasickmnky: no. I'm serious. I never should have picked up that gun. Then maybe fluffy would still be alive.
TheEyebrow: lol
Seasickmnky: I was really mad at Lisa. and I "accidently" shot her rabbit, fluffy.
TheEyebrow: Poor Fluffy
Seasickmnky: Lisa cried for like three days. Then she got a rottweiler named mikey. luckily my cat max was faster then mikey
TheEyebrow: GO MAX!
Seasickmnky: I don't know why I'm telling you all this...
TheEyebrow: lol
Seasickmnky: I really shouldn't bring up the past
Seasickmnky: it makes me sad
Seasickmnky: and mad
Seasickmnky: lisa may not be around tomorrow morning
TheEyebrow: Hey man, by now you should be able to look back and just laugh
Seasickmnky: We are really good actors and can play our hate off. But sometimes I feel like she still hates me. A LOT
Seasickmnky: haven't you heard her threaten me!
Seasickmnky: like everyday
TheEyebrow: lol
TheEyebrow: I dont even know if you're joking anymore
TheEyebrow: But I'll laugh regardless
Seasickmnky: I was never joking. We've always hated each other
Seasickmnky: I'm serious.
Seasickmnky: I'm going to have to take my problems else where if you don't believe me
TheEyebrow: hahaha
Seasickmnky: fine obviously you don't believe me. But we for real both went to Glenelg
TheEyebrow: I believe that
TheEyebrow: ...or do I
Seasickmnky: you should. I'll let you see my yearbook the next time you come over.
TheEyebrow: cool
Seasickmnky: GO GLADIATORS!
TheEyebrow: Go Lions baby
TheEyebrow: Im Howard Powered
TheEyebrow: brb
Seasickmnky: We so killed your football team
TheEyebrow: Thats because we sucked
Seasickmnky: I was captain of the Mock Trial team and Lisa was captain of the field hockey team. both which punished your team
Seasickmnky: 36-6 I believe was the score...
TheEyebrow: I was captain of the no school spirit team
Seasickmnky: I should of been in that club but nooo I had to be in the stock market club
TheEyebrow: haha
TheEyebrow: Alright man
TheEyebrow: I gotta get to sleep cause I got an 8
Seasickmnky: alright I have to go to bed now. I'm sure you've had enough of my Glenelg days. That's cool how we lived so close though
TheEyebrow: Yea
Messing with People is so fun We love you mike!!

at least now i'm getting emails to make my boobs bigger rather then just getting stuff that wants me to increase my non-existent PENIS size.

I think I am going to watch requiem for a dream tonight. Care to watch? drop me a line then...

can't go outside anymore when its raining
can't smash up that beautiful face

Old doesn't just apply to those who can remember life before airplanes or television. You qualify if things you once considered cutting-edge technology are now antiques. Or when the latest trends you swear you embraced just yesterday are things the MTV generation never heard of.

its an environmental science major thing. tree fucking...

RyanJGGR: girls and slow were made to go in the same sentence
RyanJGGR: they are interchangable
RyanJGGR: like mike and crap

i can't think of anything clever to say...

random quotes i've used
*idols are for people who can't live up to thier own dreams, so they have to chase after someone else's.
*There are lots of fables and stories about virgins. This is why myths like "sleeping with a virgin will cure AIDS" get invented. The truth is: until we start to think differently we are on our way to destruction. These rules will take us to our death.
*dendrophilia: getting aroused by fucking trees. =-O
*defenestrate \dee-FEN-uh-strayt\, transitive verb:
To throw out of a window.
*TENlegrrrTEN: oh yeah you know how i'm just fuckin everyone in my dorm
*Why is Donkey Kong called "DONKEY" Kong if he's a monkey?
*call me: 301.405.0958 @ umd
*"You have a pickled shark. I wonder if pickled shark taste good."
*"Do you know who the virgin Mary is?" "How can she be a virgin? Didn't she have sex with god?" "WHAT? I'm Jewish!"
*While standing on the elevator: "Are you guys looking for the elevator?"
*IF your name was Crunch and you joined the Navy, would people have to call you Captain Crunch?”
*i need something to hold on tight to. can you help me find a way to carry on again?
*I think it smells like cheese.
*Who put this porn on my computer?
*Don't feel bad, you are the cutest guy I've met. Seriously.
*Boys suck. They smell funny. They probably pee funny colors too.
*[Vacation Pictures] http://www24.big.or.jp/~kyusoku/whale7/penis.jpg

the time before dawn
nows the time to grab a kiss
before the sun rises
we'll part and go our seperate ways
superheros in tights
girl in pink chucks
lets try and count the times
a yellow rose shares our last goodbyes

this is the hour we steal the neighbors paper
i'll read our horoscopes to pass the time
what happens when i'm left behind?
i hear they make girls different there
i'll try not to remeber your arms around mine
i always hated the taste of turpintine
well maybe next time

can i still wear white tonight?
if not this shawl of black will do
we'll hide like bandits in the night
while the air fills thick with cigarette
our lips taste like candy lip shine
while your fingers tickle my neck
i knew i could never go back

my life will never be the same
the world can never go back
its all quite a shame
wasting that night away

I sit and wonder what I’m doing here
I can’t keep trying to be who you want me to be
This game of charades is so hard to keep up with
Sometimes I feel so empty
I only wish I felt involved
I never wanted anything more
Then to feel satisified.

I tend to follow you around
It seems I’m no longer wanted here
I’m not sure wither to run and hide
Or conitune to pester you till your annoyed
I only wish you’d give me a sign
I never wanted anything more
Then to be friends.

I sneak away lacking the guts to answer
I can’t tell when you see me
The way you look right through this space
Your eyes in my general direction
I only wish I could tell
I never wanted anything more
Then to be seen.

I speak when you seem to hear
It is usually only when your wasted
That’s when you want my company
I always listen even when you don’t say a thing
I only wished you heard me
I never wanted anything more
Then to speak aloud.

I only wished I was real
I never wanted anything more
Then to feel.
*this is the full poem. it didn't fit in my profile which explains the changes.