I never know what to expect, so I'll expect the worst. And I know you won't let me down.

and I wished I was someone else. and I wished it was warmer. and when I got home, I thought about you. like a desperate policeman, searching for clues. and I almost passed out, just then. and I shut my eyes again. headed for the dark hillsides. in the hidden places.

Yeah, I'm pouring myself some whiskey, I'm gonna get real fucking drunk. I'm pouring some whiskey right now, I'm going to get so so drunk, pass out, and forget your face by the time I wake up.

Love me, I'll be anyobdy you want me to be. Use me. Change me. I can be thin with big breasts and big hair. Take me apart. Make me into anything, but just love me.

There's a whole world down in the ocean. filled with talking shrimp, and boys who call you back. but my breath won't hold long enough.

I was going to figure out the postage, and send you my heart. But my friends talked me out of it. The said "Why would you send him something broken?"

And so I drink to stay warm.
And to kill selected memories.
Because I just can’t think anymore about that or about her tonight.

As Ray Porter watches Mirabelle walk away he feels a loss. How is it possible, he thinks, to miss a woman whom he kept at a distance so that when she was gone he would not miss her. Only then does he realize that wanting part of her and not all of her had hurt them both and how he cannot justify his actions except that... well... it was life.

effyou04: HAR. HAR. HAR.
Bukowski is Love: I'm funny. I know.
effyou04: sooooo god damn funny
effyou04: so funny i cant stop laughing.


mjnova83: you and christina, quite a comedy duo

“I drove all the way to New York and SOHO to buy shoes. My name is Carrie Bradshaw. Next week's column will be all about sex…in my shoes.” – Adam and Mel mocking me.







The way I feel about you baby, can't explain it. You got the best of my love.

Let's save our money this summer
and next year we'll go on tour.
I'll take lots of pictures
and you will perform.
Maybe we'll make a name for ourselves
and maybe we won't.

Whatever, most people who win the lottery die broke.



Me: I have too many holes and not enough earrings.
Max: Put a dick in it?

effyou04: i try to sway away from falling in love with sneakers.
effyou04: especially gay ones
effyou04: they cant give me what i need.




Bukowski is Love: I am rolling my eyes right now
Bukowski is Love: you can't see me
Bukowski is Love: but I am
effyou04: and i am jerking off right now
effyou04: you cant see me
effyou04: but i am.
Bukowski is Love: ew. pervert.

[02:03] effyou04: i cant jerk off
[02:03] effyou04: i dont have a penis.
[02:03] effyou04: yet.


[02:04] effyou04: OUT OF CONTEXT.
[02:04] effyou04: YOU ARE LIKE THE DIAMONDBACK
[02:04] effyou04: TAKE WHAT YOU WANT
[02:04] effyou04: DUMP THE REST.
[02:04] effyou04: YOU ARE LIKE THE DIAMONDBACK

Bukowski is Love: why are all my friends drunks?
ef fy o u0 4: because you yourself are a drunk?
ef fy o u0 4: that is the only explanation.
Bukowski is Love: I am not drunk!
Bukowski is Love: I haven't drank since...
Bukowski is Love: what did we do on Saturday?
ef fy o u0 4: i dont remember.
Bukowski is Love: me neither
ef fy o u0 4: exactly

Activities:	being awesome, country song karaoke, doing snow dances and making it snow, competing with Adam for cockiest person on campus, procrastinating, eating wawa sandwiches, collecting all over print hoodies, playing puzzle pirates, not sleeping, being classy
Interests:	Sarah's boobs, shoes, grillz, art, having fun, the zzyzzva
Favorite Music:	The Thermals, Mountain Goats, Alkaline Trio, The Blow, Swan Lake, Matt and Kim, Bright Eyes
Favorite TV Shows:	sex and the city, gilmore girls, ugly betty, grey's anatomy
Favorite Movies:	magnolia
Favorite Books:	Herland, Post Office, Diary
Favorite Quotes:	"the way to create art is to burn and destroy ordinary concepts and to substitute them with new truths that run down from the top of the head and out from the heart." [Charles Bukowski <3] "To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing." "What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you love. That's what matters. That's the only thing that counts. " "Maybe all men are a drug. Sometimes, they bring you down, and sometimes, like now, they get you so high."
About Me:	"Jackie has more photo comments than wall posts. The normal rules of Facebook do not apply to Jackie." - Scott "You are the most deep seated cocky bastard ever." - Colm

AD42RL: how did u pick up a guy with 1 front tooth


squidcore: Bulllllllllllllllllshit. You are the most deep seated cocky bastard ever.



effyou04: i like retards.
Bukowski is Love: I like assholes
effyou04: exactly.
effyou04: we are two fucked up girls
effyou04: with fucked up taste in boys.



http://youtube.com/watch?v=1UnYgaqW4kE



1-22 Camera Obscura 930
2-16 Matt and Kim Sonar
3-02 Thermals BC
3-05 Bright Eyes 930

If we shared our lives together...               
...why didn't we share our lives?               
You shouldn't have
to tell me everything, Derek.              
But why wouldn't you want to?
Unless there's somebody else
you're waiting for.                 
Someone who isn't afraid to say,
"The past isn't past, Derek."                
Or, "I really wanna meet your folks."             
Or, "I really, really hate hockey."

               
- You do?
- Oh, to the bottom of the ninth.

  
                 
- That's baseball.
- You see that?
I was just too afraid to be honest
with you, with myself, because,
If I was really honest,
gut-wrenching honest,
then I'd have to admit,
that we weren't right,
the way you guys are.

Il y a des incidents d'une minute qui font plus qu'une cour d'une année.

effyou04: i hate hearing people have sex.
effyou04: its so awkward.
Bukowski is Love: I like being the person having sex that other people have to hear

Bukowski is Love: why didn't you guys get the sushi boat? you had enough people
AD42RL: lack of confidence
Bukowski is Love: ...
Bukowski is Love: that's the most pitiful thing I have ever heard


LadyRepublica: you know
LadyRepublica: you should walk around naked more often
LadyRepublica: it would be total eye candy

ef fy o u0 4: no motr alcohol for you
ef fy o u0 4: you make bad decicions when your drunk

Me: "I think I am going to ask my parents for the ice cream attachment for my kitchen aid for christmas"
Christina: "That's the gayest thing I have ever heard."



"Have you ever been to the library?"
"No, I'm white."

"Because you're fantastic, Jackie. If there's nobody around that likes you then something has gone horribly wrong with the world."

"We don't even have friends to tell"
"Yeah, All I have is Jackie and she doesn't even like me."

Bukowski is Love: time does not move inside the station.

Bukowski is Love: as soon as you step out of the station, time speeds up really fast until you're back to the present time

squidcore: No, I'm pretty sure the station is not a vortext of untime.

squidcore: Or else the Physics Department would be hankering for another Nobel Prize just for hanging out with us.

Bukowski is Love: hey. it could happen.

squidcore: To quote a t-shirt, Science means that not all dreams can come true.

Bukowski is Love: To quote me, Science is a lie. Just like Jesus.

Bukowski is Love: dude dude DUDE.
monasmoustache: ?
Bukowski is Love: I met the guy from Everclear.
monasmoustache: hahaha!
Bukowski is Love: It was all I could imagined it to be and more
monasmoustache: i saw the message
monasmoustache: yaay
monasmoustache: that's good
Bukowski is Love: :-)
monasmoustache: did you swoon?
Bukowski is Love: YES!
monasmoustache: i think there would be swooning involved.
Bukowski is Love: actually it was weird and random
monasmoustache: did you ask if he had any tattoos?
Bukowski is Love: I was like Hello Middle School
monasmoustache: oh? how?
monasmoustache: hahahahaha
Bukowski is Love: hahahahha.
Bukowski is Love: I was so tempted to ask
Bukowski is Love: he has sleeves
monasmoustache: you SHOULD HAVE
monasmoustache: that would have been a fucking awesome story
monasmoustache: ahaha
monasmoustache: oooohhhhh hot
Bukowski is Love: I think Matt would of been very jealous and not happy.
monasmoustache: hahahahaha
monasmoustache: well, i guess that's good?
Bukowski is Love: but it would of been awesome
Bukowski is Love: to go on my radio show and be like, guess who I used my pick up line on
monasmoustache: exaclty!
monasmoustache: that would have been hilarious
Bukowski is Love: indeed.
Bukowski is Love: oh man now I really wish I did it just to say I hit on Everclear
monasmoustache: awww
monasmoustache: is everything all set up for wmucfest?
Bukowski is Love: I guess so. I'm currently at work so who knows.
Bukowski is Love: hopefully.
Bukowski is Love: you going?
monasmoustache: haha. i'm at home.
monasmoustache: i have 13 high schoolers for a lock-in tonight.
monasmoustache: pizza at midnite!
monasmoustache: wooohoooooooooooooo
Bukowski is Love: oh righhhhhtttt
monasmoustache: yeaaah
Bukowski is Love: man I totally keep forgetting about that
monasmoustache: how's work?
monasmoustache: hahaha. it's okay.
Bukowski is Love: even though we've talked about it a bajillion times
Bukowski is Love: work is boring
monasmoustache: eh.
monasmoustache: eh.
Bukowski is Love: 45 more mintues till freedom
monasmoustache: yaaayyyyy
Bukowski is Love: :-):-):-)
monasmoustache: did you know that the world of x-men is super complex?
Bukowski is Love: haha. oh really. where did you learn this?
monasmoustache: wikipedia....
monasmoustache: i'm doing a popular culture paper on xavier and the similarities to FDR
Bukowski is Love: haha. that is super cool actually.
Bukowski is Love: I wish I had cool papers like that
monasmoustache: yeah. my teacher really liked the idea.
Bukowski is Love: you know, I've decided we need to hang out more. and not just on my radio show. like in real life too.
monasmoustache: hahahha.
monasmoustache: i think we should too!
Bukowski is Love: swwweeeeettt
monasmoustache: yaaayyy
monasmoustache: we should plan something for later next week, when i'm not as stressed out.
Bukowski is Love: agreed.
monasmoustache: and plus, we're neighbors.
monasmoustache: so just call me when you're doing anything. or start yelling at my windo.
monasmoustache: w
monasmoustache: if you were going to be an x-man, which one would you be?
Bukowski is Love: rogue!
Bukowski is Love: duh
Bukowski is Love: she's so effing hot
Bukowski is Love: plus her powers are cool
Bukowski is Love: and I know she totally hooks up with gambit
Bukowski is Love: some how...
monasmoustache: but you can't touch any one!
monasmoustache: that's a problem. that who i said i wanted to be, and then my brother reminded me.
Bukowski is Love: dude its called clothes.
Bukowski is Love: I just wear gloves all the time
monasmoustache: you can't kiss anyone!!!
Bukowski is Love: I can touch, they just can't tough me
Bukowski is Love: plastic wrap.
monasmoustache: she sucks all the power out of people!
Bukowski is Love: PLASTIC WRAP
monasmoustache: hahahah dental dams?
Bukowski is Love: yes!!!
monasmoustache: hahahahahahahahahahahah
monasmoustache: i think nightcrawler is pretty cool. storm too.
Bukowski is Love: agreed.
Bukowski is Love: I use to have a storm action figure
monasmoustache: noo way!
Bukowski is Love: but I always had a small crush on nightcrawler
Bukowski is Love: way!
Bukowski is Love: I collected cards too
monasmoustache: hahahaha. he has all the tats!
monasmoustache: or tatts or however you spell it
Bukowski is Love: I know. so prettyyyyy.
Bukowski is Love: I bet my pick up line would work on him
monasmoustache: so true
Bukowski is Love: :-)
monasmoustache: i like the guy with the wings-- angel too
monasmoustache: being xavier would be cool too. of jean grey.
monasmoustache: jean grey! i want to be her!!
Bukowski is Love: dude you got to dump cyclops and go for wolverine already then
monasmoustache: psssh YES
monasmoustache: heck yes i would!!
monasmoustache: i've always wanted to be a redhead.